Homesick again, among other things.

It feels like ages since I’ve made a proper blog post, but from what happened last night, I think it’s time for a little catharsis.

After yesterday’s class (Wednesday is the most stressful day for us JD-I students, because it’s when we have our most stressful classes – Criminal Law, and Statutory Construction. For StatCon, our section was split into two, and the Section B.. let’s just say we’re not too fond of our professor but we try to stick it out anyway for grades’ sake.), some of my classmates and I headed out to El Amigo since it was a classmate’s birthday (hi, Lala!) and she treated us to drinks. After some of our companions had left, there were only around 6 of us who stayed and chatted. I just pretty much kept quiet and drank quietly while listening to the conversations.

All of a sudden, one of them looked at me and said that I’m not being spontaneous.
Another one chimed in and said that I wasn’t the same Yani that I was before.

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A post-birthday post.

Thank you, LINE Camera. Hohoho.

I originally posted this on Facebook to poke fun at myself as a way of thanking people who left greetings on my timeline or who texted me to say happy birthday.. but I seem to be quite fond of it now. Alas, a rare moment where I actually make an effort to look cute, because I don’t really think I am. ^^;;

So the past Sunday, July 6, was my 23rd birthday. I spent it with family, because how else should it be spent? I’ve been in Dumaguete for a little over a month and I seem to still be adjusting. At least things are a little better now than before. I’ve had the opportunity to hang out with my classmates, especially since Saturday night, July 5, was our SU Law Acquaintance Party. It was Coachella-themed, so of course people tried to dress the part. Alas, I am not quite the bohemian-style kind of person, but well. Effort nonetheless.

Let’s just say I took a lot of photos with classmates– mainly selcas. Woop woop.

..including this one! Did the makeup myself. Then I borrowed a feather earring from my classmate Lala during the night. ^^;;

..including this one! Did the makeup myself. Then I borrowed a feather earring from my classmate Lala during the night. ^^;; Dim photo, oops–

After the acquaintance party, we went to EscaΓ±o, which is kind of the central hub of Dumaguete nightlife, if you’re into bars and casual yet cool places to drink and hang out with friends and maybe people-watch if that’s your sort of thing. It was nice to ring in my July 6 with some of my classmates while at Hayahay. I got a lot of hugs andΒ besos and more hugs from them and one of them even bought me a beer (thanks, Joops!) – I never turn down free drinks, heehee. But I think this one was a little special because, well, it’s practically a gift. I was raised to be grateful for things given to me (though sometimes not as satisfied as I would like to be, but grateful nonetheless), and it’s a nice way to live.

I played beer pong for the very first time. I don’t think I”m very good at it.. I would rather watch and drink. Haha!

I got to meet a lot of new people, thanks to a classmate of mine who actually hails from Manila (Mandaluyong to be a little more exact), who I hung out with Friday night, also atΒ Hayahay. I saw them again Saturday night/Sunday early morning, so it was nice to hang out and take a shot or three. Heh.

It was a night to remember.. albeit some in fragmented memories. I think it’s made me appreciate the kind of people I’ve been hanging out with and been going to class with. They’re pretty awesome.

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Homesick, very homesick.

 

If you are here, I miss you. If you're here more than once, then I really, really miss you.

If you are here, I miss you. If you’re here more than once, then I really, really miss you.

It’s hard for me to be here in Duma.

It’s terribly hard to feel like I belong anywhere. I know I’ve only been here a little over two weeks but.. ah. I still can’t get into the rhythm of things.

I’m slowly adapting to law school and the amount of work that needs to be done.

But other than that I think I’m not doing very well.

After class today some of my classmates and I ate out at Qyosko. We sat at a long table, and naturally either end would have their own conversation.

It’s really hard, being stuck in the middle of a table where everyone speaks a different language and you can barely understand any of them. And if you want to contribute to the conversation, even if you find the words to express them you still just.. can’t. You just can’t.

Awww shoot, now I’m tearing up.. Ugh.

I miss being in Manila. I miss the malls, I miss the familiar places and faces, and I miss my friends. I really miss them. I had already found my place, my comfort zone.. Here, I really feel like an outsider. It’s like when I studied here for 1st year high school.. I never felt like I belonged.

I know a fresh start is supposed to be good.. but it’s horrible, having to start from scratch. It’s as if you need to re-learn every single thing that you were already accustomed to where you came from.

Aaaaand now I’m legit crying. Damn. Haven’t cried like this in a while..

I miss all my friends so much..

I miss Manila so much..

I miss home so much..

I really wish I was back home. My heart really seems to have been left behind there.

One more. Same as above, if you are here then I miss you. If you're here more than once then I really miss you..

One more. Same as above, if you are here then I miss you. If you’re here more than once then I really miss you..

With a new challenge comes new friends.

And that’s quite precisely how I feel about today.

We happen to have Saturday classes from 930am-11am; however we were dismissed early because we were required to attend an orientation for first year Law students at the Moot Court. At first I was a bit iffy because, well.. orientations tend to be boring, to be honest. But at least after a short talk from one of the SU pastors as well as Dr. Aguilan, the guidance counselor of the College of Law, we were able to have lunch. Heehee.

After lunch, we came back to the Moot Court and were asked to arrange our chairs into a circle – or at least, an oblong. There were over 40 of us (!!!) and obviously a circle just wouldn’t work for our class. Then we were asked by Dr. Aguilan to introduce ourselves to the class – it was actually our third time introducing ourselves, because two of our professors had asked us to do the same thing during their classes.

But the difference is, this was definitely more informal in the sense that we didn’t feel as if we were being silently judged by our professors. We felt like we were being more ourselves, more light-hearted, more open to a degree. It was really nice to have an opportunity to let loose for a bit, albeit still in the confines of school. And at least this time, I was able to familiarize myself with my classmates, even if I admit I probably will not remember all their names until a few weeks from now. (Oops.)

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A bit of free time.

I haven’t really had time to stay up and reflect on my days so far.. and yesterday’s holiday (Philippine Independence Day) was pretty much spent trying to read assigned cases, checking on my cargo to be shipped from Manila, and to go out with my nephew and buy his school supplies.

At least today, I do have some spare time to type something up on my laptop and not just type it on my smartphone.

It has been a little more than roughly a week and a half that I’ve been here in Dumaguete and I admit I’m still not really used to it.. hasn’t really sunk in that I’ll be here a while. Things just really are different here. The atmosphere is just so laid-back, very far from the hustle and bustle of Metro Manila. But then again there is a sense of urgency especially since I’m in law school. That, you can’t just happily coast along. You really have to do your best lest you get left behind.. and my classmates seem to really be good at this. I feel kind of left out because they actually do want to be here. As for me.. I’m more on here because I have a sense of obligation to my dad for this. I don’t really know what I want in life, but I do know that I want to sing. Haha. Well.. I don’t know. Maybe I’ll get the hang of this someday.

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