At last, some free time.

I don’t really have a set format or theme for this post.. this will be some sort of a feels dump, or a bit of therapy. I miss writing. I really do.

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I. On midterms.

Our two-week midterm exam period is finally over.. but we can’t rest just yet: we’ve still got a moot court activity for our International Humanitarian Law subject, and this’ll serve as our midterm exam.

I was originally assigned to be a researcher, but because one of our 3 speakers/mooters had recently been admitted (and as of yesterday, discharged) for a health issue. And he assigned me to take his place – take note that I had already said no to our other speaker when she asked me to take her place earlier this week. To be honest, I don’t want to moot..

..but I guess I have no choice. /shrugs and sighs.

I’ve already prepared my speech,Β now I just have to get it checked and perhaps add a few more things..

I wonder how I’ll do tomorrow..

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II. On reading old work.

I recently organized some files on my laptop and I decided to take some time to browse through folders which I hadn’t opened in quite a while.

I unearthed some unfinished stories (which have been untouched and unedited since around 2011-2012), and even some chapters from fanfiction that I had written.

In the earlier days of my fangirl self, I was quite active on Rocketboxx, the international fan forum for U-KISS, a K-Pop group that I was really crazy over (and still am quite fond of). In particular, I was active in the Dance Break thread – where a lot of fanfiction stories were written; some even a collaboration between multiple users.

I have always had a love of writing, mainly about things that I love, that I’m passionate about, or even just interest me. I feel that it peaked when I wrote fanfiction – mainly because I would usually write with myself as basis for the lead female character. Hey, a happy fangirl can always dream, right?

I never wrote smut or anything R-rated. The most I had written was what I would consider a PG-13 scenario – I just wanted to try writing something slightly more daring and somehow erotic. It was posted on a K-Pop confessions Tumblog a few years ago, and it got a surprising amount of likes. At least, I felt slightly validated that even if I tried writing in a style that I was foreign too, it turned out palatable for people.

I read through my old writings, and to be honest, I felt a bit melancholy. I felt like I was reading another person’s work. I don’t even remember my writing to be that full of description, so colorful with vivid images; like the South American authors I love so much.

Law school has dulled my writing skills, from a fantastic spectrum of color to text in strict black and white.

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Trying to recount my second semester, part 1: November & December 2014

It’s the second week of final exams for SULaw, and all the work seems to be piling up: submissions, Consti 2 mooting (which happened today, so at least that’s done), plus the impending exams – Oblicon, Consti 2, and Crim 2 – which I’m already anticipating to be difficult. Urrrrrgggggh.

This post isn’t as much of an actual blog post as it is an outlet for me to just write. Or type..?

Brain farts, aha!

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A post-birthday post.

Thank you, LINE Camera. Hohoho.

I originally posted this on Facebook to poke fun at myself as a way of thanking people who left greetings on my timeline or who texted me to say happy birthday.. but I seem to be quite fond of it now. Alas, a rare moment where I actually make an effort to look cute, because I don’t really think I am. ^^;;

So the past Sunday, July 6, was my 23rd birthday. I spent it with family, because how else should it be spent? I’ve been in Dumaguete for a little over a month and I seem to still be adjusting. At least things are a little better now than before. I’ve had the opportunity to hang out with my classmates, especially since Saturday night, July 5, was our SU Law Acquaintance Party. It was Coachella-themed, so of course people tried to dress the part. Alas, I am not quite the bohemian-style kind of person, but well. Effort nonetheless.

Let’s just say I took a lot of photos with classmates– mainly selcas. Woop woop.

..including this one! Did the makeup myself. Then I borrowed a feather earring from my classmate Lala during the night. ^^;;

..including this one! Did the makeup myself. Then I borrowed a feather earring from my classmate Lala during the night. ^^;; Dim photo, oops–

After the acquaintance party, we went to EscaΓ±o, which is kind of the central hub of Dumaguete nightlife, if you’re into bars and casual yet cool places to drink and hang out with friends and maybe people-watch if that’s your sort of thing. It was nice to ring in my July 6 with some of my classmates while at Hayahay. I got a lot of hugs andΒ besos and more hugs from them and one of them even bought me a beer (thanks, Joops!) – I never turn down free drinks, heehee. But I think this one was a little special because, well, it’s practically a gift. I was raised to be grateful for things given to me (though sometimes not as satisfied as I would like to be, but grateful nonetheless), and it’s a nice way to live.

I played beer pong for the very first time. I don’t think I”m very good at it.. I would rather watch and drink. Haha!

I got to meet a lot of new people, thanks to a classmate of mine who actually hails from Manila (Mandaluyong to be a little more exact), who I hung out with Friday night, also atΒ Hayahay. I saw them again Saturday night/Sunday early morning, so it was nice to hang out and take a shot or three. Heh.

It was a night to remember.. albeit some in fragmented memories. I think it’s made me appreciate the kind of people I’ve been hanging out with and been going to class with. They’re pretty awesome.

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SP – Wednesdays are not “happy hump days”..

..they are hell-day CrimLaw and StatCon days. =________=

I’m supposed to be studying but saljfhalsjghlksghslakg my brain can’t take it. I need a break, so here I am making this wonderfully rambly post. (Is that a real word? I don’t even know anymore.)

I read the case digests for the CrimLaw assigned cases last night before I went to sleep. I didn’t really bother understanding them because my mental capacities were already wonderfully depleted as yesterday we had a quiz in LegalProf as well as in Consti. Wow. I may or may not have been overly *studious* yesterday, which is definitely a world away from my habits in my undergrad years. (Oops. Sorry. When I woke up today I was like– what was i supposed to remember again ;A;

Now excuse me while I attempt to study and read through cases and case digests for Crim later.. I don’t think I can even accommodate anything other than that, if my brain even chooses to accommodate any other legal jargon at all. Eck.

Might post later.

–welp

Now playing: Versailles Philharmonic Quintet – Love Will Be Born Again

SP – Post-interview catharsis.

The interview.. I don’t know how it went.

They asked some tough questions that required me to think things through and defend my answer.

I don’t think I gathered my thoughts well enough to answer coherently or make any sense.

So right after that I went straight to the bathroom because I felt my eyes tearing up. I leaned by the counter and just.. cried.

I’m really scared for the results.

I don’t want to fail, I know people expect a lot from me and I’m scared to disappoint them.